I can be drunk in front of people, or not.
The key is not to let that be the deciding factor.
I drink on the weekends.
That’s not to say that it’s easy.
There are lots of people who know me, and I don’t have to get to know them, just to get drunk, and it’s not just about that.
For me, it’s about how I approach it.
And it’s this: I want to feel comfortable and at ease.
I’ve learnt to make myself feel comfortable, so I know how to feel safe and secure.
I know when I’m drinking and when I don, when I have a good time, when my brain has enough self-awareness to know that I’m not drunk, that’s when I’ll get good at it.
So that’s what I want, and what I’ve done.
I can’t really tell you what it feels like, but if I’m in a club, and my partner is there, and we’re drinking and we can all see each other, then I’m OK with it.
It’s like, I’m a good enough person to not get thrown off the dancefloor because I’m drunk.
So I try to avoid the nightclubs at all costs.
When I was 18, I got drunk at a party and had a really bad night.
I ended up in hospital for two weeks.
I had an aneurysm and the surgeons removed it.
But when I came out, I was still in hospital and I still had an amniotic sac in my stomach.
I was lucky.
It wasn’t a lot worse than when I got home.
But I can definitely say that if I were sober, I would probably still have a bad night, but I would be able to enjoy myself.
I would feel good about myself.
But it’s different for someone who is sober, because I’ve had a bad day.
I’d be feeling so depressed and so tired, and you can’t control that.
So when I was sober, the next day I would get through it and then it would be a bit different.
But if I was drunk, the same thing happens.
I’ll be feeling tired, depressed and depressed, and so I feel like it’s OK, because the adrenaline is kicking in.
When you’re drunk, you don’t feel the need to control it.
I think that’s why it’s so hard to control alcohol and alcohol addiction.
When we’re sober, we’re more aware of what we’re doing.
We realise what’s happening and why, and then we’re able to take a step back.
But with addiction, you have a lot more control over it.
When alcohol is addictive, you can control it, but it’s a very strong urge to do something.
You can’t do it.
If you drink and you’re not in control of it, you’re addicted.
You might think you’ve got it under control, but you’re probably not.
And if you’re sober you’re aware that you’re using alcohol, and that’s the main thing you need to do.
So for me, my drinking problem was about getting sober.
I started drinking in my late 20s, and by the time I got sober I had a drinking problem.
My first problem was I was not a very good driver, I wasn’t very confident and I was a bit of a pushover.
But then I started to drink.
I didn’t know what to do with myself, so when I stopped drinking, I realised I had to change.
I realised that I needed to stop drinking.
And so I got clean.
Then I realised how easy it was to get sober, and how easy alcohol was to drink because of how easy drinking was to start with.
So by that stage I had been sober for almost a decade.
My drink was low, and there was a point where I was drinking three to four times a week, which was a lot less than I had previously.
But that’s how it happened.
I could have just stopped, but at the same time I had become aware of the consequences of drinking.
So instead I decided that I would do the best that I could to stop.
And then it was time to go back to the clubs, because that’s where the alcohol was, so that’s my best place to go.
If I was going to do it, then it’s time for me to do the least harm that I can.
That is to say, I’ve got to be a better drinker.
So, I get into a club once a week.
I go there for a drink, but the next time I go, I’ll just stay home.
I’m going to the club for the same reason I’ve always been going to clubs: to have a drink.
But the next weekend, I just go home, because now I know that if there’s going to be alcohol there